“The scene where the two main characters make ‘love’ was altered because someone felt that seeing a man give a woman oral sex made people ‘uncomfortable’ but the scenes in which people are murdered by having their heads blown off remained intact and unaltered. This is a symptom of a society that wants to shame women and put them down for enjoying sex, especially when (gasp) the man isn’t getting off as well! Its hard for me to believe that had the roles been reversed it still would have been cut OR had the female character been raped it would have been cut. Its time for people to GROW UP. Accept that women are sexual beings. Accept that some men like pleasuring women. Accept that women don’t have to just be fucked and say thank you. We are allowed and entitled to enjoy ourselves.”—Evan Rachel Wood (via iwontallowit)
Scored volunteer work to help me with experience, which will hopefully lead to having more successful job searches in the future, which means I might earn money one day (hahahahahahhaaaaaaaahaha) and I also have a job interview tomorrow. My health care card got cancelled though, which are cards for “low income earners”, which I am, but because I know no longer receive Centrelink, I can’t technically prove that I’m eligible (apparently, in my last letter from Centrefuckinglink). Employment Options also rang me up, pissed that I didn’t show up for a thing that I’m no longer required to go to anyway.
The stress of the past week has also resulted in me falling back into the nicotine addiction ditch. Smokin’ like cancer is the greatest gift I’ll ever get.
To sum up: Life’s shitty, but I’m making small progress. The biggest hurdle will be finding the motivation to be alive/get out of bed (government induced depression, the best kind~).
I was wondering if you had many followers? If you it might be a good idea to get some ad's on your page. You just need a domain name (which can cost about $6 and your family might be able to pay for that) and then you sign up with google adscene, which is free. Im not 100% sure but I think you do need a domain so if anyone else knows, please help this lovely person out. And I know I would be more than happy to leave ads up for hours and Im sure others will support you. Good luck with everything.
I don’t have many followers, but there are a few especially lovely ones (like you, obviously) that are always helpful/supportive. I can pay the $6 if it comes to it. At the moment though, I’ll just keep applying for what I can by other means, and if I have no success over the next month, I will try this. I’ve had some wine and that has left me feeling more optimistic than I was feeling before, surprisingly.
Thank you so much for your suggestion and help. You sound like a treasure, and it’s messages like this that help me keep my head above water.
One month past the end of my three year, Advanced Diploma in Fashion Design, course.
Over 100 job applications later, my support payment has been cut down to $11 a week. I’ve been trying so hard to get off government (bullshit) “benefits” but I needed something to live on while I try and achieve that. I’ve studied my life away getting qualified in the field I have the greatest passion for and now I have to put that all aside just so I can get by. Do you know how heartbreaking that is? My family is moving away from me in less than two months and if I don’t have a job by then, the government is refusing to help me (when they have a legal obligation to!) and I’ll have $11 per week to pay bills/food/petrol/phone/etc. I also have to go through all of these ridiculous unemployment programs, where you get treated like you do nothing, are nothing, will be nothing, and I’m doing that just for my measly $11, and in the hope that one day they’ll see how difficult they made my living.
Like the fucking stress of my family moving so far away isn’t enough. I’m giving up my dream just so I don’t shrivel up, but I also get the pleasure of watching proper doll wankers, who do FUCKING NOTHING for themselves ride the wave of money that their lazy fucking asses don’t deserve.
I guess it is another kick of motivation to find a job though, but I have been into every shop and applied for anything I see online, and I don’t know how I haven’t got ONE positive reply yet. I can literally feel any sort of comfort and pleasure falling from me.
So to sum up, someone please send me a job. I’m only qualified in fashion design though, so have fun with that. Australian government also sucks a fatty.
I also can’t afford to buy my family or friends Christmas presents.